I get both -- I look at my first story & am too embarrassed to read it, but some of the stuff I wrote after I'd got the worst cliches out of my system casts me into despair. I'm a lot more critical now, and I think it does inhibit creativity. I've got so tied up with my lgbtfest story (two rejected ideas already & one teetering on rejection) that I'm thinking of not owning to it as Firerose but posting it as Espresso Addict.