A very very hard post for me to make

[vulgarweed]

I haven't been around much, because a week ago today, after 10 wonderful years together my dear sweet impish girl Madimi (icon photo) left me suddenly and unexpectedly.

The shock has passed for the most part and now the loneliness has set in. My friends and family have been hugely supportive, and so has my job for the most part, but I'm still barely holding it together.

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[ancientreader]

I'm so sorry. It's a hell of a blow to lose a cherished companion at all, never mind the abruptness.

[vulgarweed]

Thank you. It was a hell of a shock to everyone - and especially hard on my housemate, who was the one who held her as she died (while on the phone with me telling me what was happening - I was at work - and hearing me crying and screaming).

The worst of the shock and horror is passing, and the grief is dulling - which I almost regret, because it signifies the time I spent with her receding ever further into the past.

She was always a trickster, and I wouldn't even completely put past it being her final prank, except I knew it took her by surprise as well and she was not ready to go.