Bone-Fiddle verse 221B: "Lake Effect"

[vulgarweed]

A December snowstorm shortly after their first case together has John in a pensive mood. It's not sex with a man that's a challenging new frontier...

(Sherlock/John, PG-13)




John shuffled out onto the porch of Sherlock's house in his pajamas and hiking boots. The porchlight was the only artificial illumination; the white in the night sky and the white on the ground reflected each other and cast an eerie, pale light.

It was one of those magical nights when the snow was coming down hard and heavy, but there wasn't a single breath of wind, so every twig on every tree was outlined in white, and the air was heavy with a musical silence. John could hear every flake as it fell.

John breathed it in with his eyes, his whole soul rejoicing. He heard Sherlock coming up behind him, and sighed and settled as Sherlock's hands slid around his belly and drew him close.

“I haven't seen this in years,” John said quietly. Sherlock rested his chin on John's head.

“You missed snow?”

“Yes,” John said, twisting his head around for a kiss, and receiving it.

In that moment he knew – if he'd shared this with a woman he'd been sleeping with for weeks, he'd say it. Three words.

John bit it back – he meant it so much, but had no idea how Sherlock would react. Instead, he reached back to the front of Sherlock's jeans, fondling, and whispered softly, “it's beautiful.”


~end

Comments

[write-out.livejournal.com]

More Fiddle-verse? I'm making a sound only dogs can hear!! I love this so much! Oh, John... GAH so good. Thanks for sharing this!

[vulgarweed.livejournal.com]

SO GLAD to make you squee, my dear. My pleasure. Thank you so much!

[hsavinien.livejournal.com]

*sighs fondly* Aw, John.

[vulgarweed.livejournal.com]

Sooner or later, he'll say it. (Maybe 20 years later.) Sherlock will have learned to read between the lines by then.

[hsavinien.livejournal.com]

I would hope.

[mildred-bobbin.livejournal.com]

awwwwwwwwwwww squishy johnlock feels. Very cinematic moment too, lovely!

[vulgarweed.livejournal.com]

Thank you! That's exactly what the weather was like when I wrote it, at my parents' house in North Carolina.

[azriona.livejournal.com]

Ohhhh... it's such a scary thing to say, the first time with anyone, it's kind of... okay, "neat" is the wrong word, but I like that John's got that hesitation in the way he loves Sherlock, as if he's in love for the first time all over again. (And then comparing it to what he might have done had Sherlock been a woman - trying to compare the two, like comparing being in love with being in like, which aren't really the same but are and I'm making absolutely no sense, am I?)

There is a lot I think is being said here, and I can't quite manage to say it. Gah. My brain is mush when my son doesn't go to school. But I really do like this, I swear!

[vulgarweed.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! It is scary, and John really does feel like he's in love for the first time all over again. I think our headcanon for this 'verse is that John has fooled around with other men before, he's been close to them and very fond of them, but on some level thinks that romantic love is something he only feels for women, or at least that's his only frame of reference for it. So he's really in love with a man for the first time, and not only is it a man, it's Sherlock, for whom "normal" emotional responses to anything don't necessarily seem to apply. So he's a little lost at sea.

He feels safer expressing it physically than saying it - that's more familiar ground. Sherlock certainly doesn't mind.

[demonicsymphony]

I JUST NOW SAW THIS

AHHH it's so wonderful!

[vulgarweed.livejournal.com]

Thank you!