Look! I'm trying to write! *crash*

[vulgarweed]

Am working on lgbtfest fic, which is in LOTR fandom, and remembering that what I loved to write about most in Middle-earth are the characters on the edges and corners and margins who never got anything resembling their full stories told, because they are the ones who made Tolkien's worldbuilding as vivid and deep and enduring as it is. Every fictional world should be like that: the sense that the main narrative is by necessity only a tiny tip of the iceberg.

I'm feeling melancholy, though. Often, writers say that they look at their old stories and are embarrassed by how bad they are. Sometimes, I look at my old stories and think, "I wrote that?" and start to feel that I was once so much more confident and imaginative than I am now, and worry I might never be that good again.

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[persephoneflame.livejournal.com]

Mine is about how Doctor Who's Mickey Smith comes to reconcile his image of manliness, and himself, with kissing boys. Mostly it's a self-discovery fic.

And I wrote all 3000 words of it to get to the scene where he tells Jackie Tyler about it. (the hilarity of this only makes sense if you know the canon)

[vulgarweed.livejournal.com]

Oh, I do it know it well enough to know that's going to be goooooood. Even though I kind of ship Mickey/Jackie a little bit. ;)

[persephoneflame.livejournal.com]

I see support for Jackie/Mickey in canon and my brain still skitters sideways from it. I love Jackie too much as Mickey and Rose's strident mum (Attila the Mum! The Oncoming Slap!) to ship her with Mickey. Though I do love so much that she gets to be a sexual character in the show, as well as being a mother.

But my fic has Mickey, Jackie, Jake, and lots of explosions. I'm feeling pretty good about it right now.